I think your feeling is very valid and common amongst trans women… I often feel the same way.
Yup. I totally see other trans women and I’m like “am I faking that? That real thing she’s doing, am I faking it?
That is a super common feeling. Also ew at anon.
You haven’t had a history of being transphobic. I can tell because I don’t allow that shit on my dash, but I’m still following you. :)
Thanks lovelies, I’m glad I wasn’t completely mistaken with that; I’d hate to think I was offending people when all I was trying to do was vent a little about how shitty I was feeling from a big wardrobe disappointment and some crappy ongoing identity issues. 

Anonymous asked:

Sometimes you're really gross. Would you tell another trans girl to her face that she's "not a real girl"? Euw. So much euw. We can read your posts, you know.

Well I apologise if I caused offense, but I think you wrongly assumed I was equating “cis” and “real” there, which kinda puts the ew on you.

My point wasn’t that’s trans girls aren’t real girls - of course they are - but that most of the time I feel like I’m neither; instead just making a mockery of being a girl, trans or cis, instead of actually being one.

If you’ve followed my blog for a while you’d know I’ve always had issues with identity and self esteem, and I’d hope never a history of being transphobic.

thefingerfuckingfemalefury
thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

dr-archeville:

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

glamourweaver:

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

bartonsnethers:

kittenskysong:

dammit-mcu:

allofthefeelings:

bartonsnethers:

wow
WOW
fuck both of them so hard I’m done with this bullshit show
and hey, you’re still the fuckers who killed off two lesbians on the show
because you did just that

I realize I’m grasping at straws here, but at the same time, I’m not believing what the producers say about it til it happens. Didn’t they give interviews last season that lead viewers to think that May was a traitor, and that Hand was HYDRA?
I’ll believe she’s dead when… actually, no, I won’t. I’ll believe she’s dead never. It worked for Coulson.
I’m done accepting that “shows never bring anyone back if they aren’t straight white men” means those characters are dead. Victoria and Isabelle both come back to life (or weren’t dead to begin with, I’m not picky) and go to a nice isolated island where they have lots of delightful drinks and work on their tans between bouts of murdering HYDRA agents who were dumb enough to get close.

I refuse to believe this show is absurd enough to bring in someone like Lucy Lawless and then get rid of her after one fucking episode. Like, there’s no way these people are that fucking incompetent and lazy that they would waste Lawless in a role that lasts one episode.
And if they are, I am more than willing to give the fuck up on AoS because I am absolutely done with the ‘dead women’ and ‘dead lesbians’ tropes on this show.

I don’t care if they’re lying. I don’t care if this just something to protect a “twist” later or ratings bait. They chose Hartley specifically so us queer fans would get excited and then dodged ever confirming who she was so the straight white male nerds they think watch the show wouldn’t be turned off by a lesbian character. This is the absolute worst kind queerbaiting and it doesn’t matter whether you confirmed her sexuality or not she was still a lesbian and you still had her suffer great pain before you killed her. If she survives then they managed to meet the lowest bar set. “Congratulations you didn’t actually kill off another interesting powerful queer female character you only made us believe that to boost ratings on your show.” I am never ever trusting them again because this is just cruel.

Exactly this.
Don’t trust Jed and Maurissa. Don’t give them any credit. They don’t deserve it.

They’re both utter fucking GARBAGE in human form
And their series is a dissapointing heteronormative mess that honestly should have wound up cancelled back in season one. I have no intention of watching season two at all. Literally the ONLY thing that will get me to spend ONE MINUTE of my time on this show is if Isabelle turns out to be alive, Victoria turns out to be alive and the two of them are shown ON SCREEN to be an actual openly and canonically lesbian couple
That’s it
That’s the only reason I will watch so much as one episode of this season
If it’s just yet more cis straight characters doing…whatever it is they do and pairing off in boring little heteronormative pairings then yeah…I’m not gonna watch it because honestly, I have FAR better things to be spending my time on
There are shows with ACTUAL canonically queer women who AREN’T all dead that I could be watching instead…so honestly why the fuck would I want to waste an hour of my life on THIS heteronormative nonsense?

Ok, I’m doing google searches on the name “Hartley” and “Marvel” and not turning up anything other than the show.  Who is the character in the comic?

In the comics she was Victoria’s girlfriend and a fellow agent of SHIELD who appeared in an issue of Dark Avengers that had flashbacks dealing with Victoria Hand’s backstory before coming to work for Norman Osborn and HAMMER 

Wait… so that really is it for Lawless?! I could swaer they’d announced she was giing to be a recurring character!
I need that slo mo Alan Rickman Flips A Table gif.

It certainly seems like it…I’m guessing that her being said to be a recurring character was them trying to trick viewers to keep her death a ‘surprise’…if it was true I wouldn’t imagine they’d be pretending they’d killed her off for real here
So yeah
Agents of SHIELD has now killed off both lesbian characters it had without ever actually bothering to confirm they were canonically lesbian within the show by having them say or do ANYTHING to show that they were actually lesbians and is now a series about nothing but cis straight people
Because this is Marvel and Marvel is literally the most repulsive, spineless, cowardly, lesbophobic and pathetic comics publishing company to ever exist and doesn’t want to have actual canon queer women in its stories out of bigotry and out of fear that the worthless bigoted cattle might get ‘offended’ by them acknowledging that lesbian women actually exist in their shitty little stories
Hence why I shan’t be bothering to watch a single episode of season two 
And will be watching the AWESOME-NESS which is Gotham instead <3
A SUPERIOR series written by better writers and featuring actual openly canon queer women in its cast…the only kind of characters I care about seeing <3

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

dr-archeville:

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

glamourweaver:

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

bartonsnethers:

kittenskysong:

dammit-mcu:

allofthefeelings:

bartonsnethers:

wow

WOW

fuck both of them so hard I’m done with this bullshit show

and hey, you’re still the fuckers who killed off two lesbians on the show

because you did just that

I realize I’m grasping at straws here, but at the same time, I’m not believing what the producers say about it til it happens. Didn’t they give interviews last season that lead viewers to think that May was a traitor, and that Hand was HYDRA?

I’ll believe she’s dead when… actually, no, I won’t. I’ll believe she’s dead never. It worked for Coulson.

I’m done accepting that “shows never bring anyone back if they aren’t straight white men” means those characters are dead. Victoria and Isabelle both come back to life (or weren’t dead to begin with, I’m not picky) and go to a nice isolated island where they have lots of delightful drinks and work on their tans between bouts of murdering HYDRA agents who were dumb enough to get close.

I refuse to believe this show is absurd enough to bring in someone like Lucy Lawless and then get rid of her after one fucking episode. Like, there’s no way these people are that fucking incompetent and lazy that they would waste Lawless in a role that lasts one episode.

And if they are, I am more than willing to give the fuck up on AoS because I am absolutely done with the ‘dead women’ and ‘dead lesbians’ tropes on this show.

I don’t care if they’re lying. I don’t care if this just something to protect a “twist” later or ratings bait. They chose Hartley specifically so us queer fans would get excited and then dodged ever confirming who she was so the straight white male nerds they think watch the show wouldn’t be turned off by a lesbian character. This is the absolute worst kind queerbaiting and it doesn’t matter whether you confirmed her sexuality or not she was still a lesbian and you still had her suffer great pain before you killed her. If she survives then they managed to meet the lowest bar set. “Congratulations you didn’t actually kill off another interesting powerful queer female character you only made us believe that to boost ratings on your show.” I am never ever trusting them again because this is just cruel.

Exactly this.

Don’t trust Jed and Maurissa. Don’t give them any credit. They don’t deserve it.

They’re both utter fucking GARBAGE in human form

And their series is a dissapointing heteronormative mess that honestly should have wound up cancelled back in season one. I have no intention of watching season two at all. Literally the ONLY thing that will get me to spend ONE MINUTE of my time on this show is if Isabelle turns out to be alive, Victoria turns out to be alive and the two of them are shown ON SCREEN to be an actual openly and canonically lesbian couple

That’s it

That’s the only reason I will watch so much as one episode of this season

If it’s just yet more cis straight characters doing…whatever it is they do and pairing off in boring little heteronormative pairings then yeah…I’m not gonna watch it because honestly, I have FAR better things to be spending my time on

There are shows with ACTUAL canonically queer women who AREN’T all dead that I could be watching instead…so honestly why the fuck would I want to waste an hour of my life on THIS heteronormative nonsense?

Ok, I’m doing google searches on the name “Hartley” and “Marvel” and not turning up anything other than the show.  Who is the character in the comic?

In the comics she was Victoria’s girlfriend and a fellow agent of SHIELD who appeared in an issue of Dark Avengers that had flashbacks dealing with Victoria Hand’s backstory before coming to work for Norman Osborn and HAMMER 

Wait… so that really is it for Lawless?! I could swaer they’d announced she was giing to be a recurring character!

I need that slo mo Alan Rickman Flips A Table gif.

It certainly seems like it…I’m guessing that her being said to be a recurring character was them trying to trick viewers to keep her death a ‘surprise’…if it was true I wouldn’t imagine they’d be pretending they’d killed her off for real here

So yeah

Agents of SHIELD has now killed off both lesbian characters it had without ever actually bothering to confirm they were canonically lesbian within the show by having them say or do ANYTHING to show that they were actually lesbians and is now a series about nothing but cis straight people

Because this is Marvel and Marvel is literally the most repulsive, spineless, cowardly, lesbophobic and pathetic comics publishing company to ever exist and doesn’t want to have actual canon queer women in its stories out of bigotry and out of fear that the worthless bigoted cattle might get ‘offended’ by them acknowledging that lesbian women actually exist in their shitty little stories

Hence why I shan’t be bothering to watch a single episode of season two 

And will be watching the AWESOME-NESS which is Gotham instead <3

A SUPERIOR series written by better writers and featuring actual openly canon queer women in its cast…the only kind of characters I care about seeing <3

*hug* I’ve not much to say but to have hope dear. It might not be much but I hope you can find solace one day.
Thanks :) *hugs* I actually bought a few different outfits, all of which are kinda meh on me, but it was one particular one I’d be looking for for ages, cos I’d seen girls wearing it or like all over and looking great in it so I thought I’d be ambitious and try it and all it did was highlight how different I am from a real girl xD
If I wasn’t trans it woulda been fine, but unfortunately I am and the complications that come with that aren’t going anywhere soon, they’re just gonna keep on ruining things for me instead. I suppose I should just leave being ambitious to everyone else xD